make me feel like i did something wrong
because all i did was right
steal my opportunity to be happy
because all you are is sad
take a shot for me
because all i do is call the shots.
W. Meraki
Tag: mental
retaliation
when decisions that you are supposed to make
are being made for you
it’s time for retaliation
when they want to force upon you options
that are not your options
it’s time for retaliation
W. Meraki
June 21st to December 21st: the loss in the solstice.
on the longest day of the year
we broke our promises to each other
we inevitably ended it all
what was supposed to be a forever thing
was now a destined nothing.
on the longest day of the year
i found my self in an abyss of distress
as they fell i was counting every tear
praying this pain will digress
what was supposed to be the best day of my life
would now be remembered as the day my heart took a knife
on the shortest day of the year
i picked up the broken promises
not a single tear
i began anew from our end
and my heart i began to mend
on the shortest day of the year
i am finally smiling from ear to ear
i am oh so happily in love
not with you
but with life itself.
W. Meraki
insomnia driven thoughts.
i always wonder
if things ended differently
would we have not ended
would we have survived
would i even want it
yearn for it
envision it
or were we at a
predisposition
for
failure
W. Meraki
apologies
be careful when accepting apologies
that were never given.
when they tell you they forgot to call
but nowhere in their sentence was there
an apology
no it’s not ok
when they tell you they just saw your
message…3 days later
but nowhere in their sentence was there
an apology
no it’s not ok
don’t say it’s ok if there wasn’t an apology
and when there is an apology
it’s still not okay.
W. Meraki
freedom
free i finally was
free from my thoughts
free from your cage
free from your words
i only became free when i stopped
letting you cross my mind
when i cleared my mind
rid it of all your toxicity
free i finally was
free from my thoughts
and free from my own mind.
W. Meraki
i miss myself so much.
i am grabbing back onto friendships
that i let go of
i am rekindling relationships that i
ended
i am going back to routines i
stopped
i am inhabiting my old habits
all this in hopes that i can become
who i was again
all this in hopes that maybe just maybe
i can have the happiness and the jubilance
that once defined me back
all this in hopes that maybe just maybe
i can let go of this dreariness
that is engulfing me and tearing me apart.
W. Meraki
as we approach january 1st 2018…
it’s time to let go of
those contacts in your phone
the ones that remind you of home
the ones that you think will call
if they haven’t
forget them all.
it’s time to let go of
those people in your life
the ones that were never there
their negativity isn’t fair
they pretend they’re happy for you
but really they don’t care.
it’s time to let go of
all the people you thought were outlets
because you really need to forget this
there was never any spark to begin with
just broken plugs and dead ends.
it’s time to let go of
your old self
take all your fake trophies off the shelf.
let go of the image you tried so hard to protect
and yourself you need not neglect.
W. Meraki
Ghost.
loving a ghost
living off a past
a mere
hallucination in
the present that
probably won’t last
mentally here
physically dead
saying everything i want
because it’s all in my head
loving a ghost
i swear it’s doing the most
oh what a feeling it is
to be doing this
here the way i want
not to haunt
not to taunt
living off a past
and
loving a ghost
hoping it’ll last.
W. Meraki
Just how I feel lately…
I listened to all the problems of others,
only to acquire the demons of which
were not mine.
Only to deal with the
ptsd of the events that I never
even experienced.
W. Meraki
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